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Btdt, except the kids. I had friends and mobility, so I crashed. I made friends hanging out downtown and picked up work doing all kinds of things. I ran audio at shows, painted houses, repaired TVs, recorded VO for commercials. Hole in the wall apartments could be had for $300/mo which was a week of work at practically minimum wage.

My tires were expensive and loved going flat, but I could service my car myself. Someone crushed in the door and fled, so I left it while I scrounged $500 over months for the replacement. Someone spilled beer in my external hard drive and I lost a decade of projects, photos, and source code. I broke my hand and never got it fixed (paying for that now that I can't pick up a jug of milk, play music or type with it without pain). Early on, I went back home to pick up some clothes, and my ex's new boyfriend had already moved in. Stuff sucked.

But people helped me, even when I didn't ask or want them to. I was a lot harder on myself than anyone else was, and that kept me from immediately fixing my situation until I hit what I thought was rock bottom and went to a doctor.

It sounds like you've already done the medical stuff, which is the most important part. If you're unhealthy, everything is harder. I think if you're able to talk about it and ask for help, it means you're a lot closer to what you want than you were. GL.