[dirtybirdnj]

I quit drinking alcohol and i have some hobbies that involve either dragging heavy shit around or using my arms for exercise.

No amount of "focusing on myself" has stopped the spiral of my life falling apart. Every time I do something for self care purposes something else I forgot about blows up and fucks me over even harder. I cannot get ahead all I can do is exist and attempt to keep all the plates spinning while i keep dropping them.