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OP you're not alone, I'm in the same exact position and cried to my partner yesterday sharing like

- "Couldn't get level up as my startup employer keeps on giving great feedback but needs more impact" AND

- "not skilled or talent enough to raise money for start - rejected by YC (they claimed i'm at top 5% - which I think to drive their pipeline for next batch submission)" AND

- "Started bootstrap company crossed 2K$ MRR and failed due to cofounder conflict - you can blame me" AND

- "Tried building SAAS product and all failures with partner (but she is optimistic)" AND

- "Started consulting company and landed almost gov bidding for development contract (software) and failed in last round"

And currently started working on hobby project as open-source until something clicks. I feel every door is closed for me now atleast current perceptions (strong believer some door might open - but the wait time is killing me)

but one positive part is my networth gone from 0 to 650k (came from public company RSU and not a big amount for age 25 but heavily indexed) and this is giving some freedom to try and explore more things.