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2020-22 still seemed like I was still in the ignorance is bliss phase, but then middle of last year it really hit me, and hit me hard, how alone I was. Lost a lot of joy in life and can't enjoy the thing I used to. I have a hard time focusing on things and can barely read a page of a book without my mind wandering. I'm making an attempt to steer the ship in the right direction now, but it's so hard. A lot of people I knew, used to talk regularly to, have moved on and there's no reconnecting with them now (I tried). Everything is so different...maybe it always was and I just never really cared to look and realize, I was "happy" in being alone and ignorant of the social aspects of the world. What a sad time we live in.

> Either everyone feels like this just a little bit and they’re not talking about it, or I am completely fucking alone. Which isn’t fucking funny. - Fleabag