[kognate]

The first thing you should do is give yourself some slack. You are worthy of love and joy. You got dealt a bad hand, and that sucks. It's not surprising you're tired, distracted, and demoralized. So care for yourself, forgive yourself.

You didn't say what country you were in, but check at your school for mental health resources.

What to do: Stay in school and finish your degree. While doing that, try to figure out where you want to go after you finish your degree. You are not alone, the world is large and filled with wondrous people and things. Maybe go and find the nest of the sī murğ (from what I understand it lies beyond Mount Qaf).

[ayshazahra]

Thanks for your kind words but your last line really amazed me...I think you're interested in Philosophy or Sufism...btw...I'm from Pakistan, doing my bachelor's in philosophy, and my final year just started this month. The problem is, I don’t have much time to think things through because my degree’s about to end, and I need to make a decision before my family makes one for me—but honestly, I’m super scared...because tell me where do you go when your house isn't home??...