[_DeadFred_]

What does 'I can't seem to care about anything anymore' mean?

As a grey hair that burned out and flamed out with addiction I want to tell you to listen to yourself, but don't indulge yourself. Don't take action yet, figure yourself out a little more. When someone dies and you get depressed and feel like 'how can I go on without this person, the world feels empty now' people don't normally respond 'maybe if I blow up my life a little this will get better'. You figure out how to live without them. Maybe you need to figure out how to live WITH you a little before something drastic.

Have you lost passion? Or have you always delayed living/passion and you are ready for the delay to be over? Or is it you are now past the 'drastic life changes in 4 year blocks like elementary school, high school, college' and are now years deep into 'so this is my life' and don't have an upcoming new 4 year block where you shed old baggage and get another fresh start and you long for going back to that? Or???