[bormaj]

Any reading recommendations for exploring this further?

[lazide]

There are many roads. Finding a local Zen center may be one. [https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zen]. Location dependent, of course.

Be careful to not confuse reading a map, for walking the road.

Take some steps, and see if where it seems to be going makes sense to you.

[tough]

Never mistake the map for the territory https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Map%E2%80%93territory_relation

[hoot]

I read "The Way of Zen" by Alan Watts and it completely changed my existence. It really got me away from concepts like searching for meaning, purpose, and making things better.