[sigbottle]

I totally understand this rationally if you sit down and walk me through the steps.

But there's a lot of reasons - ego, fear of losing... that core identity, etc. that can easily come back and bite you.

I'm not sure if this is the same as meditation and ego death or whatever. I find that even if you go down the spiritual route, you also run into the same issues.

People in philosophy also argue things like rational actors, self-coherency, etc.

And hey, even in this current moment you were able to type out a coherent thought, right?

I've noticed more and more that humans behave a lot like LLM's. In the sense that it's really, really hard to observe my true internal state - I can only try to find patterns and guess at shit. Every theory I've tried applying to myself is just "wrong" - in the sense that either it feels wrong, or I'll get depressed because the theory basically boils down to "you're lazy and you have to do the work" which is a highly emotionally evocative theory that doesn't help anyone.

This probably didn't make any sense but g'day.