| > sounding pretty sympathetic to kowtowing It didn't. I was born into and grew up in a spot 'betwixt and between', with much of what I need to become successful, rich & powerful but at the same feeling so damn disgusted by the ways of the people I'd have to deal with that I would rather not support them at all. That nonsense got amplified by leftist bullshit, trusting people I shouldn't have. Then I got diagnosed with ADHD and a proper analysis of my psyche and my life revealed that my only issue was to get 'friends' when I should have stayed at home hacking away at stuff. They were earlier more aware/conscious and I let myself get dragged to parties, liquor and mild drugs but that Rausch was enough for my hyperactive imagination to lose any sense for accomplishment and the concrete things I could actually do to get into the right positions to make change happen and shape my environment to my (obviously better) tastes. So every time I read "support your gov.", my brain goes 'grrrr' and triggers an avalanche of emotions and rationalisations that end in "it's all super-gay Mafia hierarchies and there's nothing you can do because all of 'dem gays' are too fragile to withstand the pressure of being an actual man". ( I'm not homophobic, back in the day it meant nothing but submissive, ass licking, it was metaphorical ) So my previous post is meant to encourage myself and others to not get pulled into these hierarchies as obedient participants and beneficiaries but as competitors, breaking, hacking and fixing all the weak spots in these hierarchies and systems. Young people don't care and the kids from my year turned into people I definitely won't raise my kids with. And it's all because of pseudo-antifragility that comes with kowtowing like a soldier. |