[lostmyotheracct]

Dawg please don’t do this. I used to suffer panic attacks most anytime I left my house. I self medicated with benzos I bought off Silk Road during the day and at night whiskey. I do not recommend this path for the following reasons:

1. Tolerance. This is the most pragmatic reason. The dose that works today will not have the same effect tomorrow as your body builds a tolerance. This leads to:

2. Physical dependence. If you become physically dependent on alcohol (or benzodiazepines) you will have serious withdrawal effects if you don’t taper. You won’t be able to stop anytime.

3. Mental dependence. Life was worse for me when I had to worry about maintaining my supply of benzos and whiskey. It’s like a chain tying you down.

4. Mental clarity. I find I’m able to think better with no substances.

I found a therapist specializing in panic disorder and it was immensely helpful. I have since had a bit of a regression but went back to therapy and now I’m essentially anxiety free. Or more accurately I know how to manage it and not stop me from doing what I want to do.

Please look into therapy it can really help. You will be investing in a long term skill instead of a short term fix.