[bruce511]

>> After 3 years felt it was sucking away my youth

Do you have some goals that you felt needed to be accomplished "in your youth?" In what way do you see your "not youth" as being different to your youth?

It's interesting (to me) that you felt the first change based on "achievement" (must achieve x before age y) but this change is brought on by "relationshop" - your interaction with others.

Perhaps this reflects a general maturing you are experiencing? A more concrete idea of what is important to you and the ability to better articulate your exact goals?

Typically in "ones youth" you are "finding your place", better understanding yourself and what you want out of life. It sounds like you are doing that well. Trying different things. Seeing what fits.

From there you can get a clearer picture of what you want your life to look like.

Good luck!

[liminal-dev]

I used to have goals. I’m a locally-known videogame developer. Throughout my childhood and into my 20s I thought videogames would be my ‘main thing’, but at around 25 I realized I’ve fallen out of love with the gamedev process (and no longer play games as well). This created an identity crisis, and since then I haven’t found a definite path that combines both money and passion.

Music is me trying new things. I love it, but often feel I’m not “playing my cards right” since being in school has nothing to do with software development, making money, or establishing deep, fulfilling relationships in my life (I live far away from the city I grew up in.)

All in all, it feels a lot like blind faith. It feels bad, since my peers seem to have their life paths ‘figured out’ to some extent.

[cookiengineer]

There is huge potential in software for the education sector. Maybe you can spark your love for programming again by finding an idea that combines your love for music, gamedev, and teaching/education?