[progmetaldev]

I was already predisposed to anxiety, but after using LSD quite a bit in my teens, my anxiety took over my waking life. During high anxiety and panic attacks, I often experience dissociation/depersonalization effects. I feel like I am disconnected from myself, and watching what is happening, like in a dream. The only thing I really connect with is the anxiety and fear. Over the years, through therapy and medication, this has become rarer.

[raincom]

It is very interesting to note that the same depersonalization is experienced after a long, deep meditative practice. I realized that this meditative depersonalization was same as when I was really mad.

[progmetaldev]

I actually had to change my meditation practice from deeper states to mindfulness meditation, because I would get that depersonalization feeling. Strangely enough, being angry would break me out of that state.