[SuperNinKenDo]

I'm not a psychiatrist, but this sounds like a classic case of undiagnosed ADHD or less so, perhaps AuDHD. Certainly enough so that it's worth pursuing a diagnosis to either rule that out, or get some answers.

If you aren't able or willing to pursue a potential diagnosis, you can at least check out some of the channels that deal with A(u)DHD lifestyle challenges and coping/productivity methods. Even if you don't fit the bill for a diagnosis, there's enough crossover that you will probably find them very helpful, as you have evident ADHD traits.

[acchow]

In another comment, they mention they have been diagnosed with ADHD.

[SuperNinKenDo]

Ah OK, I did run through the comments before I posted, but I guess that wasn't up yet.

Yeah, this is classic.

If OP is interested I can find some of the channels I've found helpful. They can be a little cringe sometimes (neurodivergence is like thay), but even then, they're often genuinely helpful.

Out and about now but I can link them later.

EDIT: For OP's sake, the first thing you need to accept is that your brain is genuinely different from most people. You can be immensely successful if you adopt the right strategies. But the first step is accepting that no matter how much the advice makes sense, neurotypical advice, at least on its own, will very often _not_ be helpful.

Considering OP says they haven't tried stimulants, I'm guessing they haven't glimpsed what a neurotypical brain feels like. It really is a fundamental difference. Stimulants can get you close to it, but for day-to-day living, you need to explore advice from other neurodivergents primarily.