[giantg2]

I understand many of the things on the surface or conceptual level. But I can't transfer any of it into success. I think I'd rather be dumb and successful than "smart" (my managers' words) and shitty at my job.

Also, even the things I do have some understanding of rarely come up in my software job. So it's not like you need to know everything. Seems like it's better to know less as long as you know just the right things.