[scubbo]

> Honestly, I would suggest maybe talking to a therapist about these feelings

OP, please do not flippantly write this off - this is excellent advice for anyone (mental health is chronically undervalued), but _especially_ for someone who mired in despair and hopelessness as you seem to be (and as I was ~5 years ago). It might well be the best thing you ever do for yourself.

[jerrymcflurry]

Thanks both of you for your consideration, but I don't think it's something a therapist would resolve. I think it's just a matter of accepting the reality, which is a gradual process.

[scubbo]

Whether or not therapy would help with _this particular_ problem (I happen to disagree with you, but that's neither here nor there), it remains one of the most beneficial and healthy things that a human can do for themself.