[smt88]

Between needing to provide for your family and keep yourself alive, you need to seriously consider whether a startup is the right place for you.

Whatever wealth you think you'll get from this (which isn't even close to a guarantee, as your investors are likely going to get paid before you), is it worth your kids growing up without a parent?

Apply to some corporate 9-5 jobs with good salaries and see what the decision looks like for you. It sounds like you're in a toxic and dangerous situation. These kinds of dysfunctional startup environments don't lead to big exits.

Based on these limited details, if I were your friend or relative, I would urge you to walk away from this company and take care of your family instead of your investors.