[juice_bus]

>but currently i working as a consultant in a corporate

This is the problem.

Your experience with software development will range widely depending on where you're working, who you're working with AND what you're working with (tech stack).

[paxys]

Exactly. You may be writing code day to day, but ultimately you are a consultant, not a software engineer. Working for a company that sells a product and getting to own chunks of it for the long term is a completely different experience than working on short term contracts for random companies with the goal of maximizing hourly billing.

[frakt0x90]

I agree. Sounds like OP shouldn't give up yet. It's their very first year and the range of experiences at different employers are so vast. Just hop around and see if you like other areas.

[plz-remove-card]

> my techlead is an asshole

And this one, I find this is more often the case than not...