[mrandish]

As another poster already said, you may have ADHD. Earlier in life I was very much like you describe yourself. ADHD meds made a significant difference. Although meds didn't "do it for me", they at least made it possible for me to accomplish certain things.

[cypherofreal1ty]

i did consult an adhd specialist who said that i am unlikely to have it. and i don't have hyperfocus either, which seems to be common in adhd. even though i have tried to trick myself into getting interested in scientific and technical areas, my mind just shuts down or refuses to learn :(

[memen]

Stop tricking yourself. Your mind is smarter than you.

Or: your conscious + subconscious mind is smarter than your conscious mind.