[chucksta]

Learning to believe your own bullshit helps/confidence in what you're saying. You probably aren't nearly as bad as what you're telling yourself and trying to come off as in your post.

Plus time helps, 24 is still really young and underdeveloped relatively speaking, and you're already trying to improve :)

[cypherofreal1ty]

believing my own bullshit only made things worse for me since i thought i am smart enough to do it tomorrow and never did.

i need something different since i have had tried to improve so many times :(