| I spent too much of my life chasing achievements. They will never make you happy for long. I lost contact with all of them by going through migration, COVID, a separation. Focusing on achievements is a recipe for a lifetime of misery, except (if you are lucky) few short living moments of satisfaction. What determines your happiness is how you live every moment. Do you have good hobbies? Good friends? If you are happy with your productivity, you can enjoy the moments of pleasure. My suggestions: - Stop thinking about achievements, start to live the moment. Find what motivates you and start doing it - Find a hobby. Dance helped me a lot. It gave me progress when I lacked it in my career, social interactions, and a supportive community when I needed it the most - Commit to something by joining groups. I'm a big procrastinator. Choose activities that you don't need to do anything alone. I only practice Tango in the class and with others. That slows down my progress, but I can live with winning the world championship a few decades later ;) - Change your social circle: People you see frequently have a huge effect on your lifestyle. Don't suddenly stop hanging with your current friends, start hanging out with people who motivate you. Don't try impressing people, and don't talk about your struggles. Be friendly, lots of things happen. - Seek help. Find a mentor. Go to therapy. If you don't click with your therapist, try another person. If psychoanalysis does not work for you, try CBT. If you are diagnosed with any attention disorder, medication might help a lot - Read good heroic fantasy novels. Those will satisfy the grandeur-seeking personality - Start small and observe your progress. Give yourself reward for small achievements. The reward should be something exciting for your inner child. A nice snack will do. Over time gradually increase the time between rewards, but make them bigger. |