[codingdave]

You know how people complain that social media only shows people exaggerated positivity, and harms our youth because they actually believe that people's live are being accurately portrayed?

Sounds like you've got that same skewed perspective on the HN community. Most of us are run-of-the-mill humans, just doing our jobs, living our lives, and participating on HN to keep up on what else is going on. We're as flawed as anyone else, and nothing in your description makes it sound like you aren't one of us.

If you are unhappy with your productivity, by all means try to do better. But don't do it because you think we're any different - just do it for yourself, a little at a time, getting a little better each day/week/month.

[cypherofreal1ty]

I am not even able to do that, and that is the problem, I am not even a run-of-the-mill human and since atleast a decade, (atleast i thought or fantasized that) i have always wanted to be this driven person who achieves great things, and earns enough money that money is no object but other bigger, deeper things are what drive me but here i haven't done shit, partly because whenever a complex subject is put in front of me, i have used some or other avoidance technique to push to learn it later and never did.

Now i am trying to learn C++ from scratch but it's going agonizingly slowly, because some thing in me prevents me from being able to actually write the code on the screen and i don't know why.

[appplication]

So, you’re 24. You’re already learning C++, and that great. I didn’t write a line of code until my late 20s. I’m doing ok now. You’re well on track.

It’s hard to write code. It’s even harder get started because you’re learning how to learn. The learning curve is exponential but that also means incredibly slow in the beginning. Be patient with yourself.

[Eddy_Viscosity2]

> Most of us are run-of-the-mill humans

Exactly. I, for one, am objectively below average in many areas and this is ok.