| Been there and still continue to be there. What could my advice be worth then? I work for my dad. It is a different world. But in a way, I am trying to make things work. How do I put this? Your feelings are a result of your frustration. Frustration can lead you to either anger or sadness. In your case, it is sadness. Anger gets work done. Sadness gets you go to connect more with those around you. And that includes looking for help like you are doing. Frustration, frustration, frustration ... from having certain *expectations*, and yet finding a world completely different from those expectations. We can call it culture shock for lack of a better term because it has the same symptoms. Let's rewind the clock. Turn back your expectations. Turn down your expectations. And reassess. You are not working on the greatest tech in the world. You are not that great to begin with. A great person can go through mud and come out to the other side because a great person is humble and less frustrated and does not have a problem with the disgust and difficulty of mud. You are working on old tech. You are having to solve a problem no one can solve normally. You have to work a really long time to get this problem solved. It is not hard. It just takes a long time. And makes you feel like you don't know much. It is just really hard work and you wished you already knew how to do it. Plus, you have so many great ideas and no opportunities to implement them. And this piece of garbage tech is completely different from your ideas. And that is more frustrating. You can't even fix it. But when was fixing the tech into your great idea even a choice... or a thought? Why did you even think that you could do this? Because you saw some stupid hacker friend who generated a great idea and great attention? And you are never going to get attention so now you hate your job? GROW up. You are not living a fable. You are living a reality that never gets lauded or talked about. Shun the ideas. Discipline yourself. There is a task that needs to get done. And it does not need greatness. It just needs discipline. Give that discipline some time. Soon it will morph to creativity in the boundaries you will soon learn exist. Then ... you can have your ideas. (This is a note to me. Sorry if I came across too hard on you.) |