[solarmist]

Might want to read about cPTSD (I recommend the book with the same name by Pete Walker as an introduction) or childhood emotional neglect. It looks similar to ADHD and/or ASD but has very different causes and is highly treatable. I was diagnosed as both, but it wasn’t until I really started digging into my emotions and past that I started making progress.

To your parents, I would say even procrastination isn’t intentional it’s the symptom, not the cause.

[cypherofreal1ty]

i can definitely see some similarities from a brief read up on cptsd but i don't know if it could affect me so badly that i literally procrastinated years away on things that i have been told are necessary, partly due to delusions of superior ability and partly due to feeling tired a lil bit after attempting some mentally consuming task.

[solarmist]

I feel that. I thought that way for decades. Specifically until two years ago when I was 41.

All that time I thought my neglect had given me strength and resilience. But it just made me inflexible and obstinate.

[cypherofreal1ty]

cptsd or not, i have realized i am pretty inflexible as well, which has really stalled my personal growth