| It's frustrating that you explicitly said you don't want kids and 1/4 of the responses are "have kids". I would suggest (re)watching Groundhog's Day. After that I would suggest taking up a hobby that involves actual progress. Music, sketching, dance. Something you can really fail at and that isn't practical. Cooking and running are practical self-care. Some people elevate them to the level of achievement but you aren't experiencing that satisfaction or drive there. Reading is just media consumption. Pick something you can't do but that you wish you could do. Try to become non-shitty at it. Rinse and repeat until something clicks. Set a schedule. Practice the guitar once a week. It won't necessarily be a purpose. Most people don't find a purpose, they just arrange a useful set of dopamine pumps that satisfies them. That's enough for a primate, especially in recovery. Our lives don't mean anything. We're stuck in a pyramid scheme where the only "meaning" is to have a kid and hope the kid finds a purpose. The kid has the same problem so they procreate. Ad infinitum, ad absurdum. Searching for purpose is futile. Searching for satisfaction has a chance. |
whatever hobby your kid picks up you will be forced to partake of.
cooking and fitness are a must.if you fall apart you cannot take care of your child.
you must have discernment in what activities you choose for your children. you might hate them but you will have to do them.
schedule also happens automatically - kid will ask for food,entertainment,education regularly.
a kid will get you 90 percent of the way there.