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> don't have much that I can help you with Clearly, I appreciate the concern but I can handle my mental health more or less just fine on my own thank you very much. I spoke to a psychiatrist on the phone days ago before I was evicted due to my own concerns and doubts in regards to my mental health/"conditions". They said they think I'm fine and they apologized for the "welfare" check I went through. Stigmatizing an individual as lacking a connection to reality based on their honesty with their past history/struggles with psychosis doesn't exactly seem very fair, does it? And let's say perhaps you are correct, just as a hypothetical, I am indeed in the throes of a psychotic episode! Oh no, what ever should someone in a position like me do?! I tried going to a 24/7 medical centre when I first got evicted and I claimed I was suicidal and very tempted to jump off a bridge but that was brushed aside and not taken seriously, I so desperately wanted to get "help" from the "healthcare/helping systems" we have in place. I was told I'd be fine and that I seem very intelligent! That's the help you get with our systems... I highly encourage you to do more research in regards to what going through a condition like psychosis is actually like for an individual/the social stigma around such a condition/the implications of such stigma/the long-term effects of anti-psychotic medications, the actual "support" most medical staff commonly provide to someone in a position like that, the number of peer reviewed studies with a sample size that isn't piss poor/etc in regards to conditions like that, the relationship between trauma/PTSD and psychosis, and how shitty of a job our systems are doing at implementing/practicing a bio-psycho-social model of care. I've had to learn *A LOT* on my own to understand what the hell is going on with me, almost no one has provided me with any real and or practical resources. A few days ago my previous "therapist" called a "welfare" check on me after I sent them an email expressing major frustration in regards to the "therapy" I have received over the past 6 years. I swore and said some unkind things towards them because I really am more or less near my breaking point and while none of this is her "fault", I would be far better off if they recognized the limitations of their training and referred me to someone/something who may have been able to provide support/resources to me that would _actually_ help someone in a situation like mine. > I have a close family member with mental health issues. Your situation is going to make you more exposed for a psychosis episode. I'd focus on getting somewhere to sleep at any cost (any CC to max out?) as soon as possible to avoid getting an episode while you are homeless. I agree! The longer I go without sleep, the more stress I go through, the more adversity I face, etc -> the more likely that will be to trigger another possible psychotic episode, I've managed to catch about 2 hours of sleep last night/this morning due to staying in a different section of a hospital/waiting room. Before that I was able to get a consistent 6-8 hours of sleep every night in the hospital until a guard "kindly" recommended I spend more time "visiting" and less time "lounging", today (last night?) I was recently woken up by a different security guard while I was catching some sleep in a different section of the hospital lobby (they were much kinder than the last one, credit where credit is due) anyways this nice security guard told me to move to a different waiting room but they also interrupted the little bit of rest/sleep I was trying to get while staying warm! Indeed, what a wonderfully caring "heathcare" system it is we have! Sorry for the tad bit of anger I'm expressing here but I've already maxed out my CC, I'm in a debt, and I REALLY have tried everything I can think of to put myself in a better position, including applying to numerous jobs with my unusual background, tailoring my CV to positions, trying to raise VC for my project (this surprisingly seems to be going better than my job search!), and that's not to say I haven't made mistakes in this process, maybe I could do a better job in regards to selling myself, if so please reach out and feel free to offer me some practical advice in regards to that. But please don't be demeaning in regards to my "connection to reality". I do encourage you to reflect on how difficult it is to find a job in this industry/field when you more or less have very few professional connections, no degree/certs, are a highschool dropout (btw I wish I could go back to school, I regret dropping out, I've always loved learning, lately I've been focusing on chaos/physics/information/quantum physics/graphs/etc and there's nothing more I'd love than to be able to pursue something like this formally now but I haven't been able to find a feasible way to support myself while pursuing that formally when you take into account that I need to survive/pay rent/food/bills/etc, Perhaps I missed something/some resources though, do feel free to provide some practical advice/resources/people I can contact to figure out a pathway to pursue such things :) Idk,maybe my "tenuous connection to reality" is really the problem! The problem isn't maybe me having a crappy approach to writing a CV (Might be! I've had to teach myself more or less everything in this life) which one could offer practical advice/tips on, the problem isn't maybe my "poor grasp" on programming/practical coding skills/etc (which could be improved on! not to mention it's also possible to provide practical learning resources/skill assessments/feedback on such skills), the problem isn't maybe a piss poor social support system in my province, etc. Nope, it is *most definitely* my "lack of connection with reality." Once again, I apologize for the anger I'm expressing. But please reflect on how you expect your response to be of any use, guidance, or like a pointer towards a real resource, or to be of any actual help for someone in a position like mine. I hope your family member is doing okay and is able to find the support they need, it's just that if I'm being frank, I'm not able to find such things despite trying very hard to do so. |