[lioeters]

Earlier in my life I noticed a pattern, that every 7 years or so I get a strong urge to throw everything away and start over from scratch. It felt like various aspects of life situation - friends, lovers, jobs, city, the country - had run its course, that I had explored and experienced all I could, that things were starting to repeat themselves and had gotten stale. "Is this all there is to life?" Then, I'd find or create an opportunity somewhere else, often far away - a new job, a new person, new state, new country.

I've lost count how many times I've done this, but every time it feels like the world is falling apart. The daily dis-satisfaction became too much to bear, I had to get out and do something to turn everything upside-down. It's a traumatic event, to leave the old life behind. But I would feel such a release and peace when I finally manage to find the next big step. It has always worked out for the better, though sometimes it's a real struggle to get there.

In fact, I'm at such a crossroads these days. I already know which way I'm going to go: south, to a sunny country near the sea.

I couldn't recommend it to anyone though, I've only done it because I had to. There is great value in having a comfortable life with well-known routines - and one day I hope I will settle down.