[kubanczyk]

> You will always be on high-tension because you don't have the time to chill down with your lovely computer.

If there's a meta-lesson in this for the OP... Don't get stuck in the old equilibrium. Parenthood is a time of big changes - leave stuff in the past, allow yourself into new, unknown equilibriums. Yeah, you have no idea what they are or where they are, but they don't involve addictions, constant tension, or anyone's personality disintegrating.

I'm being insensitive, because I also don't understand you.

[hnthrowaway0328]

Thanks. That's fine. After 3 the situation becomes more manageable. A friend of mine was in the same shoes and 3 is the magic number. I think it has a lot to do with interactivities enabled after 3.