[DoodahMan]

i'd like to get back into treatment but it seems futile at the moment. i've been trying to find treatment for many months to no avail. one receptionist laughed at me even - that was fun. i'm dealing with untreated bipolar2 and various anxiety disorders at the moment. it makes reaching out difficult, but i've been trying my best.

i prefer a long-term plan with the same care provider. i need some time to warm up to a provider. on-demand and remote doesn't mesh with me at all. i have the means; the problem is availability. since the pandemic things seem to be slammed...

in the mean time i've been trying to stay busy with my personal software projects. i'm planning to hike and exercise more, improve my diet, and cut back on my drinking. white-knuckling bp2 ain't no fun, i cycle quickly. hence the drink. but i know that is but a band-aid; a sometimes destructive band-aid at that. religion, stoicism, friends/family, etc alone ain't going "fix" me. unfortunately i need medication for life or my life falls apart.

i wish anyone else struggling nothing but peace. much love. ya ain't alone.

[NoReg]

Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

Everyone has a preference in terms of counseling methods and duration. The shortage of counseling professionals is a nationwide issue, so you are not alone in having a hard time finding a counselor. While you are still in the process of searching, you can try to use some self-help apps (some of them are good and free as well) or public helplines. During the pandemic, each state launched additional free public help services for mental health. So, it does not hurt to give it a try. Sometimes the specialist on the line can point you in the right direction.

Good luck with your software projects and stay positive :)