| I'm sorry to hear that. This is an open question which I've pondered for a while (so atemerev, your circumstances may not align, but I hope you don't mind me asking it here): > I wonder how often/ to what degree, circumstances of long covid might be attributed to individuals whom pre-covid were on the cusp of developing more severe symptoms of burnout or depression (for the first time), being abruptly nudged over that threshold? It strikes me, this likely happened in some cases, such that some individuals simultaneously faced both kinds of cognitive phenomena for the first time So implicit – I wonder how often the two are conflated? Or how one ought to reconcile specific (relevant) circumstances between long-covid, and burnout/ depression? So back to yourself atemerev (with no assumptions): can you speak to this at all? Many thanks |
I did have stressful events I was dealing with in life before this occurred, but I was managing. While I had COVID, I realized that I would get very unexpectedly sad and sometimes cry for no reason. As COVID got better, my depression symptoms stayed and got worse.
I ended up sick with something that required antibiotics and within a week of taking those, my symptoms started to ease up. A month later I was doing much better. A few months later and I was back to normal. I also started therapy during this depression event and continue it today just in case.
I really don't have a way to prove that it was connected to COVID or the antibiotic use, but I can tell you that my mind was not functioning correctly during this. I could mentally know everything was totally fine, but my body would still decide to dump adrenaline and fear on me unreasonably. It was like being trapped in a broken body that was torturing me. People would try to tell me that everything was fine, and I would explain that I knew that, but my brain chemistry was still on fire and logic didn't help.
Anyway, I fought hard, I reached out to friends, I did therapy as often as I could, I started exercising, did breathing exercises, took lots of walks outside, and I eventually got through it. It felt hopeless but I just did those things anyway through sheer force of will. Eventually I got through it and that hell is only a memory now that continues to fade with time.
I believe this was related to some kind of inflammation somewhere that was linked to a very bad COVID infection.