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Well there are obviously other reasons I want to have cousins, but that's indeed one of them. I think it's because I've experienced having not many cousins first-hand, even the one cousin I have is 10 years younger than me so I don't hang out with him much.

Also my mom was the first of her cousins to get married and have a child (me) so I always felt like I was in a gray area when hanging out with her cousins because there was too little of an age gap between us for them to not take me seriously (and not treat me as a child) but also I wasn't old enough to connect with them and live through their family lore.

few that was hard to write

more fun context: The age gap between me and my mother's youngest cousin is only 3 years so I hope you can see how I am considered like the true youngest cousin between all the cousins.