[bschne]

Reading about this — I'm sorry to hear about your loss! — makes me wish we understood the dynamics of things like this much better than we do. Some stuff seems pretty clearly "not good", but sometimes it's really hard to reason about what is bad as long as you're exposed and leaves relatively little lasting damage, or what can have bad effects with highly delayed onset, and how the mechanism of "setting in motion the delayed-onset damage" works, exactly — is it the substance that stays in your body and continues to do damage, does it throw some process off-balance that then continues to harm you even after the substance is gone, etc. If anyone has any pointers to sources that cover our understanding of this better, I'd be very interested to read more about it.