Thanks for reaching out. I'm in a good place where I think I'm doing great. The description of the main character's negative attributes sounds identical to what my partner accuses me of. These perceptions are impossible to shake no matter the contrary evidence. In fact the person would rather ignore me than learn the truth.
So I identify with what I believe the character is struggling with in the film. I have no question about what I'm doing. My partner on the other hand has completely lost/never had faith after 30 years.
It's a tough spot to be in. Currently I'm discovering Jack Benny and there is a lot to learn.