If you're "on the brink" of "suicide, homelessness, and starvation", you're not ready to do a startup and there are a thousand things you need more than you need seed investment. This is absurd.
This is the most important comment in this thread here. It's not possible to start up a successful company when you're also on the brink of suicide, malnourished, and you're having deep internal conflict. Your startup is going to push those things on you by itself and adding to your personal conflicts and problems is asking for trouble.