[satisfice]

I’ve been through this and out the other side. I suspect your real problem is just loneliness. Coding used to be harder for me when I was alone.

I have found that doing sessions of coding with colleagues and students— even if they don’t know how to code— seems to make my intelligence come out to play.

My mind seems to need an audience to please.

I wrote about this in my book on self-education: Secrets of a Buccaneer-Scholar