[rramadass]

Posts like this are what is really wrong with this world :-)

I am going to be contrarian and be harsh on the OP but for his own good. Empty "feel good" responses that i see here are actually toxic positivity at work.

Grandiose opinions about oneself, making excuses for one's failures, being unclear about one's goals, not applying oneself seriously to actually studying something, not understanding the difference between true knowledge acquisition vs. posturing for the same, caring more about others opinions of oneself and allowing that to define oneself etc. are the original sins.

The answer has always been the age old advice "Apply yourself systematically and work hard".

Sit down, quiet yourself and ask "What are you trying to do and achieve?" Narrow it down ruthlessly to something small and specific and then do it.