[em-bee]

not sure if this fits here, but just today the thought occurred to me that depression may be related to expectations i have of myself but also what others expect of me. by avoiding pressure from others and not expecting to much myself but without considering that a failure, or by not blaming myself if things don't work out, in other words, avoiding things that would lower my self confidence, may be a way to avoid depression.

i have never tried NaNoWriMo, but if i did, i'd look at my situation and realize that i would not get much done, but for me that would not be a failure, because i wouldn't even go in with the expectation that i should be able to change that. on other words, i would not even have the hope that it would go well. instead it would be the realization that without participating i'd write nothing. by participating i'd write something, and so i may consider that a (small) success.