[goodroot]

For clarity, this response is personal.

Attitude is a potion or a poison.

Make the choice.

Want demons? You'll find them.

Want help? You'll find it.

Many, many people have spent time figuring it out.

Many, MANY people have went into professions or made life style choices to help.

The will to overcome your own narcissism and self pity are key to any healing.