[CharlesW]

> I have been unable to identify a role available to me which will not materially make things worse.

Have you ever watched The Good Place? What you're saying resonates with me, and there's a character (Doug, S03E08) that you might identify with. I'm wondering if seeing a conversation about the topic played out in fiction might bring you some comfort.

[1ncorrect]

I watched _The Good Place_ when it originally aired, the strongest residual and most attractive concept was _The Final Door_. This has promoted it on my rewatch queue.