| we've had nightly air raid alerts for the last two years. Now there are less of them, but I don't know what the future
will bring. I think russia is preparing their winter campaign
of terror again, so we will see. When it is 3 in the morning and you hear explosions and you
are really really fcking happy that it didn't hit you. You can also have no electricity and heat in the middle of
the winter, but it sort of sortable if you go somewhere public
where business have electricity generators. At first you get used to living like this, but after some time
your natural resilience start to break and it can become quite
difficult to live. So I've got a lot of time to think about life and death sort of
things in this setting. I've got to understand one really simple thing. I should live my
life in such a way that when it really hits me, there be no regrets
for my time in this world. I need a bazzilion friends and experience love, I need
that people think of sunshine when they remember me. Because
I am love for every living thing. Everything will be the best
way it could possibly be, every hard thing in life is there for
a reason. That what lead to gender transition, but that the whole another story,
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