I have noticed ssri withdrawal causes suicidal ideation but not enough to go through with it. It's like it causes the thoughts but not the action from thoughts.
That’s excellent to hear that for you personally, the ideation did not become reality. However, suicide starts with ideation, so any suicidal ideation must be taken as a potential precursor to suicidal, even if in the end it might not actually progress.
You can only know how bad it was in retrospect.