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by cowpewter 5184 days ago
Doctor. Go see a doctor about it. If you're currently a student you probably have some sort of access to free/affordable healthcare, even if it just means starting at the university clinic. If the OCD started after/around the same time as the depression, then fixing the depression might fix the OCD.

Right now they're just feeding off each other. A big part of depression is feeling like you have no control over what's happening in your life. The OCD might be a way you're trying to feel like you have control over something again, even if it's just the formatting of your documents or when you wake up. Then when you can't achieve that you feel even more out of control and more depressed and the cycle is just going keep getting tighter.

I cannot recommend strongly enough that you go see someone and get this looked into. I know it's scary, I know it might feel like it's too hard or like it's pointless, but just do it. It took my mom actually showing up and physically taking me to the doctor before I started to get help, and by then school was ruined for me, and so was my credit. I had declare bankruptcy a few years later to shed the debt that I had run up while I was too depressed to make myself pay bills. Not the best way to start your mid-twenties.

You owe it to yourself to get this fixed.