| I have been there for long periods of time. It is awful. the fear really damages your mental health. The longer it goes on, it will drive you crazy and make you do inadvisable things and get paranoid. My recommendation is make use of video therapists and career coaches to help you make better decisions. If you talk to your peers, you are giving too much information to people around you. It’s a bad idea. You can usually find virtual career coaches and therapists. Work through with them. It is a great idea to rely on outside help. Your family : wife can’t help
you. My experience is talking to my family and wife didn’t help. They just don’t understand. A coach is actually incentivized to be objective and help you talk through problems and find solutions. Keeping all this struggle in your head, you will make bad decisions and you are not objective. You are in an emotional space. A coach can help provide a neutral 3rd party. They can also help you brainstorm a practical strategy, how to talk and how to get to a better place and steps to take and accountability to have important conversations such as with your manager. It costs money but the alternative is to go into a fear spiral and shut down and ruin your mental health. It’s worth it. I started talking to someone semi regularly and it is so incredibly useful to have someone confirming and validating your experience. For example, I was in a toxic and disrespectful environment and by coach immediately called that out. No one around me or my boss would admit it was a bad environment. The most dangerous thing you can do is sharing too much information with your peers or manager about your situation. I have learned not to ever talk to others around me about what I am going through. They are your competition or looking for reasons to flag you. Only a paid coach is going to be your friend. That’s how it is. We are in a dog eat dog environment. Any weakness signs are often a death sentence in such environments. I also recommend improving nutrition. Eat a fruit : vegetable shake every morning to improve your health. If you have a mineral or similar deficiency it can cause additional problems managing your emotions and with your self confidence. |