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If you want to code more than anything...find code you are passionate about. Think of a small project you want to work on and learn what it takes as you go along. Just reading text books won't really teach you how to program. Finding something you are passionate about will allow you to fight through the challenges you run through.

When I was in elementary/high school, I got into programming purely through an interest in reverse engineering and writing hacks and bots for online games. My interest in it allowed me to get through reading assembly and complex C++ memory injection code that was way beyond me at the time and learn from it.

Reading and understanding large code bases is not an easy thing. When I started my first job at a very large enterprise software company working on a 20+ year old massive code base, I had some serious anxiety when I first looked through the code. But take your time exploring it and trying to understand it, look things up as you go along, and you will eventually start to understand it.

Write some code with a purpose!