[165iq]

I have read Atomic Habits and meditate almost everyday. I also made some minor changes to my life learning from AH.

I don't have an attention deficit. Neither do I use social media or other common culprits of the day. I don't have any problem focusing or learning. Or, as another user mentioned- accountability problem.

My problem is staying focused at something for months or years. Something shinier comes along and I switch to that.

When I was a child, I got away unaware because everything required little effort from my part. I barely studied outside of my classroom and still aced all tests. In college, although I got below average, I still graduated. With almost zero effot. About a dozen of my peers dropped out even after a lot of effort. It was a hard major.

I am responding to all comments as the writing is also reflective to myself.

I think I also have the problem of being unable to assign priorities to things that I want to do. I want to do a lot- and I want them now. I have to change this, I guess.

And I need to finish things that I start.

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>And I need to finish things that I start.

Do you, though? Try reading Barbara Sher's "Refuse to Choose". There's a place in the world for everyone, and not everyone has to be an administrator to succeed.

[165iq]

Thank you for your comment.

I will check out the book.

Yes, I believe what you say. But I will have to pay the bills and get fast internet and have money to pay health insurance. I also want to start a family some day.

And do these, I need a job. Rather than a boring, Dilbert type job, I would prefer an R&D position, or be a professor, etc.

And to do these, I need discipline, and that is why I am trying hard, and making this post to see if I can get a good advice.

Rather than working in fintech, or at a webdev consultancy firm, I would like a better environment and an esoteric job. I have mostly failed because the lack of discipline and work ethics.

I think I was able to convey why I am trying hard and in distress about my lack of work ethics and discipline.