[scantis]

That's difficult, motivation is the ultimate key. I love to unwind, doing something else, startet wakeboarding and smashing my face in water. Started a weird obsession of meeting real people playing some GO, chatting and loosing.

Something about trying new things and being horrible at them, makes the day to day the dorment state. I feel relaxed with task I can complete and excitement for what comes so natural to others but is beyond my abilities. I wish I could just slide on water or see the spaces for the stones.

Something different, something just for you.

Otherwise it is only the lonely mind against the void. Problems you can't explain to anyone, pushing the wheel of death to move at all.

There is no pushing through, there is no holding out, it is what it is. Kneip it, hot then cold, enjoy the change don't suffer one too long. Accept both states as what they are. It got me so far.

But what do I know. Not at it for so long, but I accept my depressions when autumn changes leafs. This is a month away in the north, so enjoy the sun and don't worry so much. When it is cold and dark outside it is easy to be productive.