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Wow, this sounds so relatable. I went through most of what you describe, especially it being a mix of depression and anxiety disorder and not being able to identify anything I would enjoy, low energy, not feeling like starting or doing anything. Just wanting to disappear, and feel nothing. I felt loneliness was part of my problem too. The covid situation made me much more isolated than I was admitting at first.

I also found a lot of help in meditation and developing and practicing mindfulness. Recognising thoughts and emotions as they arise and to not identify with them was a big eye opener and relief. Just letting thoughts be or talking about it with someone when I noticed a pattern really helped. I think part of it was also processing some buried away issues.