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Since I was diagnosed with ADHD last year I've been looking for other lenses to understand my own complex outside of a strictly genetic component. Self therapy, although I could probably use an actual therapist as well.

Between developmental theories of ADHD, complex PTSD, and even going back to old foundational texts (Karen Horney's Neurosis and Human Growth from 1950 was great) – I've found a lot of alignment on the theories of childhood abuse and neglect that lead to developmental disorders, in my case ADHD and depression.

As a child you have no basis for understanding what's wrong, or that the pain you feel is unusual. It's been a lot to process, and I'm not sure what to do with it yet, but at the very least it helps alleviate the weight of my rocky adulthood being "all my fault".