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Our family photos included one particular photo of me, a rear view holding a garden hose.

And it was extremely embarrassing, but not because of its subject matter. It was embarrassing because, for decades, my mother used it as a weapon against me. It was one of those things to emasculate and humiliate me for being a boy and for having a natural body. It was a way to tease me and implemented as a source of shame.

It was just another brick in the wall, of course, but unfortunately I didn't get proper access to burn it when I had the chance. It might still exist, for all I know. I may perhaps eventually get a golden opportunity for final satisfaction.