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Sounds like you are very ambitious

But something quite traumatic has happened to you

Those symptoms you are experiencing could be your body trying to protect yourself

It sounds like you're trying to ignore those signals with caffeine tablets and other bypasses

If I was in your position I would start trying to figure out when you experience disregularation so you can notice it

I'd also be thinking about grieving for yourself and trying to process those signals your body is telling you

This is not an easy thing to do