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It did include some substance abuse primarily stimulant and alcohol (which has a stimulant effect) so that makes sense, but I think it was mainly depression (which fueled the substance abuse) and even that has sleep disrupting effects. The paralysis was strangely comforting because it felt like - and I reasoned as much at the time - that if I was able to stay still and barely breathing that nothing would happen. The problem couldn't see me because I was so still - I was so still I wasn't there.

Good job on your efforts so far. It sounds like you had a breakthrough.